Shapeshifting Anxiety

Some thoughts about the future

I have shapeshifting anxiety about the future.

When I was in middle school, I had anxiety about high school. When I was in high school, I had anxiety about college. Now that I’m in college, I have anxiety about my future career. What am I going to do with my life?

It seems like it’s one thing after another. And not just that, the next thing I’m worried about is always bigger and scarier than what came before it.

There are some moments where I’m confident that I’ll be able to figure it out and it’ll all work out fine. Other times, I’m less sure about that.

I don’t want to wake up one day in my forties, realizing I fucked it all up and took the wrong path.

I wish there was a map or a guide to look to in order to know what to do. I don’t think that map exists. There is advice I can piece together from different sources, but no map.

This post originally appeared on my substack.